The last day of my Sitting Month

Today, 9/26, is the last day of my Sitting Month. Adrian is now downstairs sleeping in his bounce chair in front of TV with his sister.

Last night was the first night in 2 weeks that I slept with him. I couldn't sleep well. Because my brother came and visit after his work, we talked until 1am. When I went to bed, I kept thinking Adrian will be waking up any minute that I just couldn't fell asleep. He started to stir around 1:45am, and I finally picked him up and woke him up at 2am. If I kept waiting, I just kept postponing my sleep. After feeding, I still couldn't sleep well. I guess it's because I haven't gotten use to him that I kept thinking he will wake up any minute. By 4:45am, I got waken up again because Steven was ready to go to work. And, at around 5:30am, I got up and fed him and dozed off to sleep after that. At 8am, I got wake up again by Cassandra and finally gave up and decided to say 'good bye' to my sleep of the day.

Cassandra woke up this morning with a very bad mood. She was fussing and because I was tire and exhausted, I got annoyed at her too. She started to cry and cry and I just had to leave her in her room for her to cry it out before I go back to sooth her. I was too tire to try to comfort her. I knew why she was crying. It was that kind of very 'sad' cry. She knew there is nobody sleeping now in the baby's room that she can run to to talk and play. Her A-Ma (my mother-in-law), her Po Po (my mom), her Gong Gong (my dad), and her Jiou Jiou (my brother) all left. My brother came last night after work and left this morning to go back to his work. For the past whole month, she had gotten used to and enjoy the company of all her beloved grandparents. They talked to her, they played with her, they did homework with her, they took her to school, to classes. When my dad left last night, I knew she was very upset. But, because my brother was here, she seemed all right until I told her she won't be seeing her uncle when she wake up next morning, her sad face came back again. This morning, after she finished her crying, her first words were, "Did Jiuo Jiou left already?" I felt so bad. She also asked me if we are going anywhere today and I had to tell her 'no' because I still have to stay home for my last day. So, I promised her I will play with her today and do some activities with her. I feel bad for her, but I know she will get over it very soon after we start our daily activities.